My heart has been crying out to the Lord and I got some new CD's one of them being the new Superchick CD. I found a song on there that so expressed how I feel. Although I don't know how there will come beauty from the pain I have to hope it will. Here are the words.
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here I am at the end of me
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
You will bring beauty from my pain.
Anyway in other news I have gotten more work done on my blanket and my friend taught me what I needed to do to make it a little less sloppy. I was so excited. I also got my first copy of Interweave Knits. I wasn't sure if I was actually going to pay for the subscription but now that I have seen one I am definetly going to get it. I loved it. It has so many great patterns!! I am getting more and more addicted to knitting everyday. :)